The Little Perks of Motherhood.

The Little Perks of Motherhood.

• 12.16.2016

Felix has been awfully fussy these last couple of days and I'm not really sure why. I've read online that some babies just have a period of fussiness during the 6 to 8 week period and that it's normal for babies his ages to be moody around that time frame (thanks for the info google). Since Felix is only 7 weeks and the fussiness isn't gut wrenching screams, I'm not really worried that something is wrong. I just feel bad because he's normally such a content happy baby and it breaks my heart to see him struggle to fall asleep and squirm in discomfort. 

These days I'm spending a good amount of time holding him to make sure he feels safe and as comfortable as possible. As I've been holding him, I've taken note of some of the things he does that just melt my heart. Here are just a few things this little babe does to pull on my heart strings.

1. How his tiny little fingers cling to my shirt as I nurse him.
2. This rough patch is making him very clingy, so the way he looks around for me when I'm not within his view is just precious. 
3. When he can't find me, he slowly starts to whimper until he can see me or hears my voice.
4. When he knows I'm about to feed him, he'll stop crying and start licking his lips or sticking his tongue out looking for food.
5. How attentive Felix is to my husband when he comes home from a long day at work. 
6. Our snuggles before bedtime. 
7. Those little sleepy smiles as he dreams sweetly. 
8. The way he coos as his sits in his bassinet waiting for someone to pick him up and play. 
9. Our long chats after he's been fed and changed. 
10. The way his nose wrinkles as he squirms in his sleep. 
11. The fact that I am the only person who can calm him when he's crying loudly. 
12. When we co-sleep, he somehow ends up snuggled up next to me even when I've placed him in the center of the bed at the beginning of bedtime. 
13. Sometimes, the only way to comfort him is to place him on my (or daddy's) chest so he can listen to my heart beat. 
14. The fact that sucks his lower lip after I unlatch him because he fell asleep while nursing. 
15. Those little whimpers and coos he lets out as he sleeps. 
16. Those kissable chunky cheeks and that little double chin are to die for. 
17. How he places his hands across his chest looking so content with life as I rock him gently.
18. The way he stares up at me like I am the only person in the world -- it's like he's telling me he's grateful for my snuggles and comforting embrace. 
19. The fact that he talks to mommy effortlessly, but when it comes to everyone else, he seems to be a man of few words. 
20. The love that is felt every time I lay my eyes on him and the way he reciprocates that love in his own unique way.

I could go on and on, but I think it is plain to see that I am completely in love with my baby. It's true that some days, motherhood is proving to be harder than I thought and while I love my son to pieces, there are some moments when I am frustrated -- not because I find his fussiness annoying, but because I can't help him feel better. But even in those very moments, this little boy is just the sweetest little thing and has his mama wrapped around his little finger.